chris8258
03-26-2008, 04:43 AM
My name is Chris, I’m 30 years old born with spina bifida. I’m writing this in hopes that a parent will read this and find some use of it. I’m the perfect example of what you do not want your child with spina bifida to become. Now I’m not a bad person, I’m just not successful in life. It really is hard for me to say these things but I’m hoping that it helps me change my ways.
Anyways, the first thing that came back to bite me in the ass was public school. I’m not a fan of it for a number of reasons. First being the kids just never understood me, teased me, and just made my life at school a living hell. To this day it makes me sad. I wanted to learn, I wanted to learn everything I could get my hands on, but the kids just got to me too much. I would do home school in a heartbeat if I had a chance to do it over again, and so would my mom.
I made it to the tenth grade and dropped out hooked on drugs at 17 because the only people that would except me where the other losers in the school. We need a lot of help fitting in to the fast pace environment of grades 7 and up and the help just was not there, and to my knowledge it’s still not. For some reason we tend to be very smart, and I guess that is because we exercise our brains more than any other muscle in the body, and emotional issues can really cripple that.
The fact that I never had a good education made it impossible for me to pay for college, I also had zero interest to even go back to school until I was 24. So for the last 6 years I sat around and learned everything I could about computers. I read book after book after book. I learned a lot. I would build computers and sell them on ebay for extra cash, but shhhh I can’t tell the government I made a little money or I will lose my health coverage. They allow me to make 60 dollars a month, more than that and it’s gone.
I’m sorry if this post comes off as a big poor me post, but I just needed to vent. Sometimes I wish life would just be over, and I don’t want any of your children to ever feel this way. Love them, protect them, fight for them, never leave their side. This world can be very cold, and unforgiving.
Anyways, the first thing that came back to bite me in the ass was public school. I’m not a fan of it for a number of reasons. First being the kids just never understood me, teased me, and just made my life at school a living hell. To this day it makes me sad. I wanted to learn, I wanted to learn everything I could get my hands on, but the kids just got to me too much. I would do home school in a heartbeat if I had a chance to do it over again, and so would my mom.
I made it to the tenth grade and dropped out hooked on drugs at 17 because the only people that would except me where the other losers in the school. We need a lot of help fitting in to the fast pace environment of grades 7 and up and the help just was not there, and to my knowledge it’s still not. For some reason we tend to be very smart, and I guess that is because we exercise our brains more than any other muscle in the body, and emotional issues can really cripple that.
The fact that I never had a good education made it impossible for me to pay for college, I also had zero interest to even go back to school until I was 24. So for the last 6 years I sat around and learned everything I could about computers. I read book after book after book. I learned a lot. I would build computers and sell them on ebay for extra cash, but shhhh I can’t tell the government I made a little money or I will lose my health coverage. They allow me to make 60 dollars a month, more than that and it’s gone.
I’m sorry if this post comes off as a big poor me post, but I just needed to vent. Sometimes I wish life would just be over, and I don’t want any of your children to ever feel this way. Love them, protect them, fight for them, never leave their side. This world can be very cold, and unforgiving.